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Wednesday, May 7, 2008
I'm still picking myself up i don't really know how to start this post cos i think its random ah.hehe.umm.well, life?ate may&my bro left for the states.im sooo gonna miss them!there's nomore kuya Rovin the panget.no1 to laugh with or get scolded by.hehe.yea.he'll be like coming home from school and then he'll start playing with my younger bro or start using the com.(thats why i cant use it.ehehe)booo.to tell you the truth.most of the times, my family is always incomplete.your a 6 but it always ends up to be either a 5 or a 4.booo.i miss my kuya.he'll be long gone for 3whole months.but nomatter.i got a another.alil older.hehehe.my other kuya!whee~!it's great to have 6 in the family altho most of the times you're incomplete.you'll still get the chance to be with the ppl who loves you.its a biig yeay!uhuh uhuh.takeCare alright? school? MYE..boo.dang exams.don't like..haiz...next week's my math&sci.argh.i dont like luhhh.it sucks.i gotta work extra hard.&with my timetable that i had to do?its getting really mean.nowadays i have to be home by 3 and follow that stupid timetable.boo.then every 1hour.my dad will call to check on me.grrr.hahah.its so hectic.i wana hangout with my bunch of friends but i'm just not allowed to do so.gahhh.sacrifice eh sacrifice. (part 1)others? well its complicated.okayy maybe not.but its way different from, you know, last year i guess.it's just not the same anymore.hell yea i'm happy.but there's still something missing.everyone would call it the best feeling they'd ever felt.but there's just something that makes it incomplete.maybe some people would understand all this right now.&some people would be like "wtheck is this girl talking bout?".you don't get it?ask me for explanation.all i can say is that its not the same. (part 2: this is concerning u,YES you, if you know who i'm talking about)in school, what do we do?we see each other.but we don't do anything.okayy maybe i do want to say hi.but if i say hi.i'll be unsure of what you'll do.it's either you look at me straight in the eye, or just walk away like i'm some sorta retard waving my freakishly thin hands to you(okayy that was exagg).but nweis, we don't know each other in school.we sit near each other,we walk home like friends do together(but far away from each other), we chat thru phone&msn. but when it comes to face2face? we are nothing to each other. when will it be the same again?i don't want this to continue forever, ya know. it's not like we have no idea about each other. we don't even give each other at least a simple small smile.this hurts.it really does.well to me it hurts.not being able to be like what we used to be.i know, we've been thru alot.but don't bring those stuff back this year.we are not gonna die if we say hi to each other.just pleaseee.some1s gotta make the first move.i made mine.when's yours?i tried picking up my courage again.when will you?i walk past you, tho im not looking at you or im just talking to sum1 else, i know you're there.i miss you.i really really do.all i can just do now is to talk to ANDIE like one mental case.cos he reminds me of you.i know we're friends.but don't you realise, it's not totally working between us?where's the closeness we used to have.... just alil part would do, alil part in my heart i just wana be the same again even without _ _ _ _ cos it kills me inside to know your now far away like you said lets put the past aside &start a new beginning. Wednesday, May 07, 2008
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