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Friday, October 10, 2008
Exams are over. thank God i got through even with all these problems i'm facing right now. it's okay. i thank God he gave me sufficent time to rest, eat, sleep &work my butts out for my EOYexams. they'll be asking us to double check our marked papers on mon&tues. i'm scared. but whatever the results may be. to God be the Glory! cause i know i did it all for Him! my God is Awesome! okay, so here's a short msg abt what im going through lately: have you ever tried to look up, to stop the tears from falling? or have you ever tried swallowing hard. or maybe just try to forget that it ever happened? it's not that easy. For me it isn't. For you i guess it is. Every1 keeps telling me to give up. They keep telling me that maybe, just maybe, you've given up yourself. but i keep telling them 'NO'. she's my bestfriend. She still cares. We'll be okay soon. Nothing to worry about. Bestfriends do fight. it's bits&parcels of life. Things like these happen. It's normal. i keep telling myself these stuff too. But i just can't wake up the fact that she might not be coming back. That she might have forgotten me already. That... i was never her true bestfriend. Because now, she has other people to keep her company. But is it really my fault? i mean, look who's neglecting the other. Look who's really the one loving&caring for the other. &YOU said i was the one that was never there. You said you didnt want to lose me. YOU said i changed. But have you ever thought that the real person who really did change was you. ¬ me? You'd think that after 10days without a word or contact, i'm still the one who changed? How hurt are you? How much do you care? How can it be so easy for you to forget things between us? Am i the only one who really loved you? &i didnt know that you never loved me the way i loved you? You told me bestfriends were supposed to be there. Through thick or thin. Where exactly are you? Right now that i need you most. You see me all bottled up in a corner, silently waiting for some1 to be there for me. Not a smile on my face. While you're there, with them. Laughing&smiling like we never met before. Like nothing ever happened for the past 2years. With all the heartaches, tears, smiles &joy. Do you ever remember those times? Or have you thrown them away? i haven't. &never will. Do you see the real problem now? Do you see the real one in fault? I'm here, making a fool outta myself. Thinking that everything would be alright between us soon. Smsing you. Asking if we could talk it out. Just the two of us. But what do i get!? Nothing in return. Eos, do you even care? Don't you want this to end? Don't you want US to be the same again? "i'm broken. so very broken. Lord, fix me. Heal my broken-heart. I'm so tired. But she doesn't seem to realise this. Lord tell me that she's still my bestfriend. make me strong. Help me to carry on." i can't give solutions to all of life's problems , doubts or fears. But i can listen to you. &together we can search for answers. i can't change your part with all its heartache &pain, not the future with it's untold stories. but i can be there when you need me to care. i can't keep your feet from stumbling. i can only offer my hand that you may grasp it ¬ fall. you joys, triumphs, successess &happiness are not mine; yet i can share in your laughter. your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge; i can only support you, encourage you &help you when you ask. i can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me. i can only pray for you, talk to you &wait for you. i can't give you boundaries which i have determined for you. but i can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself. i can't keep your heart form breaking &hurting, but i can cry with you &help you pick up the pieces &put them back in place. i can't tell you who you are, i can only love you &be your bestfriend. -Anonymous Friday, October 10, 2008
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