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Sunday, October 12, 2008
OK, finally. i was up quite late yesterday night. then i sent her a msg. She finally replied. we chatted, &we made up. we're friends again. Just friends. but i don't know if i should feel happy or sad. OK, happy cause we're alright now. but sad bcos, well, we're just friends. Or close. not besteeys. she said to take it slow. i didnt really know what she meant by that. but i had to respect her desicion. so yeah, we're just friends. but i have never treated her like one. cause i've always treated her as a bestfriend. &she'll always be. although she might not consider me one right now. like i said, she'll always be my one&only bestfriend. &after all we've been through. i won't reconsider. i really don't know what to feel. i don't know why she consider me as 'just a friend or close'. i mean, who would let go like that. i know i might be hard to accept as a bestfriend already, but why can my church friends stay as bestfriends ¬ us? why do they stay as bestfriends, despite their number of misunderstandings when we only had one 10days fight? why can't you accept me as your bestfriend again. i'm happy with us being friends again. but im not used to having you consider me as 'just a friend or close'. i'm not forcing you. i just feel, thrown away. because i still consider you as one. &its hard for me to accept that you don't return the favor. &i don't know but i remember you saying we'll always be bestfriends forever. nomatter what happens. we will always be bestfriends. where'd that go? i never thought that one quarrel with your bestfriend can be so huge. that once its over, she might not consider you as a bestfriend no more. i thought it would be a lesson to learn. a bestfriend thing. i didn't know one can let go of that kind of friendship just like that. that one can give up on the other, while the other is still holding on. she said she's not ready to commit to the word 'besteey'. that felt like a strong stab in my heart. it's like after EVERYTHING we've been through. you give up on the word 'besteey'. i don't want to start another fight. im just clearing things out. this is my blog. but i truly respect your desicion. if you're not ready, i'll be waiting. till the day that you'll say i'm your bestfriend again. for now, i'll try to win you back. but if i can't, which probably would happen. because now, there are ppl in the way. who wants you. forgive me. but i want you to know that you'll always be my besteey NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. cause thats how much i cherish our kind of friendship. Sunday, October 12, 2008
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