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it's the second day into something new.
&i'm still so weak in the heart.
but forcing a smile on my face.
trying to laugh when everyone tries to make me smile.
but deep inside, my heart knows very well that i just want to be alone.
crying my heart out.
asking God why..

i just can't keep my mind off of him.
i've never felt this way for a long time.
&this time, it hurts the most.
everytime i shut up, i keep quiet, this situation pops up.
even though i'm occupied with something, it's in the back of my mind.

i can't help but cry, cry both in the inside &out.
cause what can i do?
we were forced to agree.
we had no choice.
no choice at all
we didn't even get the right to speak up for ourselves.
it just had to happen or else everything would be in a mess.

but doesn't he know it'll never bring true happiness in us?
doesn't he want us to be with our love of our lives?

exactly 11months & 10days into the relationship..
i was hoping for longer.
but no, they had to come in between &drift us away

i'll never accept the fact that we might just be friends from this day on.
even though we're just special friends now.
i know it'll never be the same again...

so i tried asking you whether you want to fake it.
because for you baby if there's a chance to be with you again, i'll sacrifice...

you know how much we love each other
would you let people be the cause of us fading away from each other?
after everything we've gone through..
i know it's a very difficult decision to make but please think it through carefully..
i don't want to start moving on, i don't want to let you go.
so please don't let me go...
i'll die.

i'm sorry if i'm pressurizing you.
i just can't live without you...
you know that i'll never be myself again if we fall apart.
every single thing i do, i think of you
don't give me up..
please don't give me up

*cries*
i won't be able to take the pain..
my heart's dead, you said yours is too

but i know we can get through this.
if you just believe.
i promise i'll make this work if you just come back to me.
i won't let them tear us apart again.
so here's a song for you

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothin'
With all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want when it comes to lovin' you
You're my only reason,
you're my only truth

I need you like water, like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy from Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms, that carries me through
I need you

Oh You're the hope that moves me
To courage again,
oh yeah
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage
And it's so amazin' cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
Cause you've brought me too far

Oh, yes I do, oh
I need you like water, like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy from Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms,
yeah, that carries me through
I need you

Oh, yes I do
I need you