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wow, like they all mentioned
EXAMS ARE OVER
but funny i didn't turn up for my last paper.
yea, my physics
i'm not feeling a-ok again.
&i couldn't even pull myself up for school.
&i thought my paper was at 11 when it actually was at 8.
so i've gotta go get an MC otherwise i won't be awarded any marks!
that'll suck.

so i'm stuck here posting after such a long time
yeap, so it's been 15days &counting
my life's a rocky road now.
but life's never gonna stop till JC comes back for us.
&i really can't wait to get out of this world &be in his arms
forever..

after 15days,
i've only started to put his 'memories' in a box, hidden away in a drawer just yesterday
i should have done that a long time ago..
i know
cause everywhere i go, he's memories are there to remind me of him
so i decided, enough is enough, i can't bear to see them anymore..
if he's kept my memories away,
every letter &every gift with so much of my effort put in,
then i guess i should too
if he's put me aside already,
then why can't i too?

he's just a guy

i guess i was vain
i let my feelings take over me
i let that one certain question he asked me a week before everything began, lead to everything
i guess i was stupid
yeah, he's an idiot & i'm stupid

when stupid met idiot i used to say
&he'd laugh & agree
wouldn't you?

she's starting to fall in love with him,
he wants to fall in love with her
i'm here still in love with him
but why should i go through so much pressure over someone i love who wants to go his own way
why should i carry on this way?
i wanna be the one sacrificing
the one taking all the pain away
cause i know that's what JC did for us

cause the greatest gift is to set the one you love free
&like i always say, if he's happy, i'll be happy for him

that's true love, right?
you'd do anything to make him happy

i've gotta move on
i know i'm strong
despite my condition now
(i don't want to talk about it)

everyone says i'm strong
so i'm going to prove to them that i really am

susu said i never fail to smile when i'm with my princesses even when i know he's around
its cause, i don't want anything to go inbetween my friendship with them

i won't let one guy ruin everything.
not anymore

he used to be there to help me pick up the pieces of my broken heart,
but he betrayed me in the end
so now i've gotta pick them up alone or not alone

i love you princesses
all of you never fail to walk me through my life
i'm sorry i'm such a brag when it comes to this
but do understand me
i'm sure we will all go through this once in awhile

it just really takes time & courage
i just need time

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smile AJ, cause there are people around you still loving you
there's one that will never stop loving me
that's JesusChrist!
he's my TRUE LOVE