i'm tired.
i've been waking up quite early for two days now cause my younger brother & i have to go for our workshop.
we're still under probation.
so it's still an audition until friday when the results of who's going to be doing the musical will come out.

i'm fine if i'm not chosen.
because i think i'm the oldest there. hahaha.
yes, the others are younger than me.
well, i was forced to audition anyway.
& it would be really cute if the younger ones did the show without me.
it most probably will be a little more inspiring.
(:

IDOL finally appeared during the workshop today.
my heart went thumpthump a little more today because i was made to dance infront of all them without any fixed choreography.
i had to come up with dance steps at that point of time.
he was there watching. i saw him watching.
yiiiiii!
i'll get to see him for another two days straight!

i love his little brother, especially
he danced the cutest!
i swear!

" i don't want you to go back to the Philippines. because if you do, i'll miss you. & if you go, there won't be anyone there to remind me that there are other fishes in the water."

OMG! did i just type that?
hahahaha!


yesterday was horrible.
i felt sick, felt like vomiting, i felt very dizzy.
but i didn't tell anyone except...
not a word came out of my mouth while i lied on the sofa yesterday night.
i had no strength to talk.

i just fixed my eyes on the tv while my favourite soap operas were on
fortunately, no one noticed anything strange about me.

oh, & on the way home this afternoon, i read through my diary i've longed neglected since.
i noticed that almost every time i wrote, it was mostly about my moments with him
the good & the bad.

then there was this weird thought.
since the 5th & the 6th of July is near, & i've stopped writing anything inside that diary, why not lend it to him until my birthday?
like a library book.

haha, whatever. we'll see

anyway, i've finally watched twilight! i think it's the most romantic movie i've ever watched! i loveee it.

do you know that they won the best sexiest kissing scene of current days 2009?!

AWESOME!

&i do agree, OK, hat their kissing scene was smokin' HOT! (((;

the VAMPIRE who wants to stay away but impossibly can't.
ayiiiiii, so kilig (goosebumps)!

ahahaha.

& omgeee.

i know i'm really out-dated but he is quite handsome, don't you think?

still have not fished my homeworks.
tsktsktsk.

i don't want to go to school!

not just yet
RAWR!



" i think i love you a little less than before"