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first of all,
my phone's confiscated.
don't ask why cos it's a long story. lol. so don't sms me, okay?(;

secondly,

YOU!
what are you hiding from me? i don't want to hold any grudges. but please, i hope you respect me. we're good friends. we're rather close. but... why are you entertaining ______ behind my back. i don't blame you if _______ wants to sms you. &i don't mind you being friends with ______, but if it's gonna get deeper, it's gonna hurt me badly. i know you might be thinking that i shouldn't bother anymore. but you should also know that i still have my heart for ______ that's why i cannot not bother yet. so i beg you, please please.... i love you, &i don't want us to be drifted apart by this.
this was another reason why i cried today. & that's why i mentioned about _______ also because i wanted to tell you indirectly how much it hurts inside. especially when i have my little secret you now know. &now you know the reason why most of the times, i'm quiet. & most of the times, whenever you're near me, i feel uncomfortable. honestly, but i hope you don't mind... don't let whatever you know might happen happen, okay dear? i don't want you to be part of my tears...

YOU!
hmm. i don't know what to say anymore. i'm tired... your life's your life. i just wanted to be a part of it somehow like i was before. even if it's different now. just a small part will do, though. but nevermind. i know it's impossible. my faith in you is fading.
i'm done chasing cars. i love you, really really much. bye.