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came from Ganeish's Deepavali open house. it was rather fun since most of were there.
&woah! i ate 5plates of food. uh huh, 5 yaw! i have no idea what got into me but i was hungry. the girls kept staring & asking me why i ate so much. all i said was, 'i have a very big appettite. &i'll be safe. i won't grow fat anyway. ha ha ha.'
then headed to Bottle Tree Park until my dad gave me a signal & i had to go back before i even reached Bottle Tree Park.

so there's another plan for tomorrow.
picnic at East Coast Park. just to have fun before tuesday, when we find out our results.
i'm really hoping for good news. i mean, who wouldn't?

&&
i found out something when i went online in this computer because usually, i use the laptop.
i received offline messages from... *cough cough*.

1st offline message:
"when are you going to be online? i miss you..."

2nd offline message:
"like or love? does it really matter? all i know is that i love you. i don't know how to make you mine but i love you. i love you Andrea."

tell me, how am i suppose to react to what *cough cough* said? if you know who i'm talking about but you're not so sure or you're just curious to know who *cough cough* is, ask me personally.
i checked the date & he seemed to have sent it on september.

Argh! freakkk~.
if only i could force my heart. or if only you didn't love me at all because really, i'm afraid & i don't know how to love again. maybe not now. maybe not for a long time. i'm sorry... i'm very confused myself. & i think you are too...

i don't want to break your heart. no one's heart, in fact. i'm not boasting but, a line of YOU silly humans are there when i'm here... still uncertain.

i think it's because i've given up on love. i'm traumatized, love.

crazier things have happened, but then again...